journal

bloods been on a low simmer all day. friend-of-a-friend is visiting from out of state and friend asked if they could stay at my place to which i agreed because i like friend-of-a-friend and that ended up being a mistake. friend-of-a-friend hasn’t done anything wrong whatsoever and has been a fine guest, the bed he’s been sleeping on doesn’t even look use, he leaves in the morning and returns late at night to sleep. fine. friend has been extraordinarily frustrating, since its friend and friend-of-a-friends thing and friend is the one who knows how to get around, friends basically been in charge of the visit and has been wholly inconsiderate towards me despite dealing with having this guy in my house

two days in a row now i’ve been left out of everything while they go around doing whatever unplanned. first day was alright, they went to do something while i was in class so i couldn’t go and the thing they were doing after i didn’t really want to participate in, but it was still a little annoying that they didn’t keep me updated at all. today they just up and left without me even knowing before going through and hanging out with everyone else in the circle and not responding to my calls and texts.

trying to make the best of the situation, i invited them over to grill, for which they took an hour longer than they implied they would to actually arrive without keeping me updated on the holdups. please note that if you are going from point A to B, but the target is C, you are not presently “heading over”. when they did arrive, the group they had gathered showed up with a bunch of alcohol without asking or telling me. i told friend that i was really really angry at this point and went to sleep after texting them to please gtfo as soon as they are finished using my grill. it took them like an hour. i’m shocked they didn’t get the message but whatever.

friend-of-a-friend is staying over one more day, and this will probably be another day where i don’t really hang out with anyone i was expecting to by offering this resource that has now been abused since i am having my grandparents over for dinner and need to be back by a certain time, which there is no guarantee of working out with this group. friend-of-a-friend leaves tomorrow. thank god. i’m not doing this again

also annoying: last night my dad got a fucking DUI and is blaming everything but himself. he was pulled over for speeding like 15mph over the limit on the freeway which he does by default late at night (“i get a ticket about every two years: i get one, i stop speeding, it expires, i start speeding again” bullshit rationalization), overshot his location by two cities, and read 0.09 bac.

patche has also been sick the last few days and i miss her a lot. it’s been over a week since i last saw her. this used to not be a problem!!! i think she’s almost well now so i’m really excited to see her again