journal

my body & soul are healing

i have systematically eliminated all manic timewasters from my technology use, deleting social media & eliminating algorithmic content (i still use youtube, but via RSS on channels i like, for example). additionally, i have practiced actually devoting my attention to specific things for extended periods of time. this has benefitted me in numerous unexpected ways.

i feel less foggy, and i’m able to dedicate myself to tasks, recreational or not, that i never had the attention span before. i have been practicing reading, and seeing the duration of time which i can focus on a book for extend dramatically. lately, i have been reading intensely about ecology and wolves, particularly enjoying “Yellowstone Wolves: Science and Discovery in the World’s First National Park”

i finally feel ready to tackle a degree. i have historically been filtered aggressively by academics, but i feel ready now. for the first time ever, i am preparing for a college semester with a full course load. without realizing, i had already gotten over halfway to finishing an associates-for-transer, and i’m ready to get that done so i can move on to studying biology at a university.

my sleep is improving, i fall asleep easier and wake up earlier thanks to massively improved screen habits caused from just not having that much to do on my computer anymore.

i can even enjoy casual gaming again, something i have never been able to devote the attn to in a very long time, i have been playing lots and lots of wolfquest and its very fun!! as well as being a much healthier way to burn time than manically tabbing between my chat clients and fedi.